Don't be sorry. I understand. This whole mess is hitting you out of the blue. Maybe you've been "special" in a subtle way for a long time and it did really register. That's what it's been for me. I'm freakishly smart. Like Brianiac smart, only less destructive. But after last month, I'm now sort of like Supergirl. Only I can't fly. Or have ice breath, or laser eyes. Okay, maybe She-Hulk without the rage or the green would be a closer comparison.